It’s a shame that I’m too embarrassed to post a photo of myself on the internet. A year ago, I was around 200 pounds. I weighed myself today, and I am now 245 pounds. At 36 years old, I have arthritis in both knees, both hips, and both shoulders. Both knees and shoulders randomly dislocate for no reason. The other day, I had to go to the Emergency Room. I shuffled in, unable to lift my right leg without sending myself to the floor. My body was bent at a 45º angle toward the floor, and I had to have help signing in.
It took only a few moments for the ER personnel to put me in the weirdest pretzel position I’ve ever thought possible and snap my back into place. I somehow misaligned my lumbo-sacral disks, and I did it by trying on a pair of underwear. No, I did not have any problems. No, I was not trying to be sexy. I simply bent over, pulled them up, and twisted to tuck in the tag. Then, I hit the floor.
I’m too young to throw out my back while putting on clothes. I am too young to be this close to diabetes because of obesity. I am too young to waste my life worrying about health problems, when I should be writing and enjoying friends.
I am too young to die. But, that is where I am headed if I don’t change.
Twice the Girl
I get short of breath walking from the entry of Walmart to the electronics section. That isn’t acceptable for a 36 year old woman, who is supposed to be in her prime. Call it a mid-life crisis, or a eureka moment, but last night, I found a photograph of myself from a year ago. It surprised me, and I pulled up another photo I took yesterday. I was so shocked that I edited yesterday’s photo to see the difference based on the size now, versus the size I was a year ago.
I am literally twice the size today. In a single year, I packed on another human, and I am carrying her around everywhere I go. It’s time to get rid of her.
That eureka moment hit me so hard, that I couldn’t sit still. Today, I am unfolding my Gazelle. I took my hand weights out of their box. I dusted off my workout videos that I used to enjoy. Today, I start a new lifestyle. Today, things change. Today, I start on my path to reshaping my life, my body, and my health.
Almost everyone who knows me, knows that I had a roux-en-y gastric bypass in 2011. Before I went into surgery, I had to lose weight so that they could get my liver out of the way to cut on my stomach for the procedure. I’m starting that diet today.
No Sugar Added Carnation Instant Breakfast (CIB) has all the nutrients and protein I need for a meal, if used for a short amount of time. Starting today, I will drink 6 glasses of CIB a day for two weeks. The week after, I willlower myself down to 4 glasses per day. Then, a week of 3 glasses per day. I call this my detox month. It will help me detox from all of the junk I have been eating, all of the candy, carbs, fat, calories, and fast food.
Next month, it will be time to start with one meal of solid, healthy, food a day with my two CIB shakes. The month after, two meals a day, with CIB for supper. On the third month, I will be fully on solid foods.
During my detox period, I plan on working on my endurance. Currently, I get winded on my Gazelle after about five minutes. I can work with that. Five minutes a day for five days. On the sixth, I try and endurance test to see if I can up it to ten minutes. If I can increase once a week at five minute intervals of exercise, I can easily work my way up to thirty minutes a day. Thirty minutes of cardio is my goal.
Once I establish my cardio routine, it’s time to add in the hand weights for arm and shoulder strength training. My weights are 3 lbs, 6 lbs, and 8 lbs. Starting off with the three pounds, I hope to progress to the 8 pounds in a month. If I don’t make it, I’m going to do something I have never done before: I will continue building strength until I can, at the schedule my body sets, not the one I have in my head.
With the hand weights and my Gazelle routines established, I plan on incorporating yoga for 30 minutes a day, once a week, building up to three days a week, on top of my cardio and arm strenght training.
My Ultimate Goal
While I would love to get down to 150 lbs in a year, I am realistic. My hope, is by this time next year, I will have lost 50 pounds with this new plan. Each week, I will post my progress, interspersed with random thoughts and how I feel about the changes. Maybe if I put everything down in words, and make those words public, I can hold myself accountable and keep my discipline so I can finally achieve a healthy weight without another invasive and life-altering surgery.
Any help and cheering on is appreciated. Any advice on healthy meal plans and/or low-impact fitness training will get you squee’d at. Thank you for reading this far. My journey starts now.